|:: Feels Like Retirement ::|

well i'm too young to know what real retirement feels like, but not having to go to work everyday and having all this free time sure feels very close to it. it's been a week since i quit work. i haven't done some of things that i told myself i would do once i quit my work, the biggest being finding a new job. but instead, i have been spending my time doing the things that i want to do, the things that i didn't have time to do when i was working. it's been a long time since i've been able to do this, so i'm enjoying every moment of it.

after my last day of work on friday, i was left feeling a bit down. more than anything, i was worried about what was to happen to me now, whether i would be able to find another job and about money issues. that sluggish-down feeling lasted through the weekend, and although i had a great weekend of activities, it still felt a bit hollow. i don't know, somehow it became increasingly hard to shake off the void that work once took up. sunday was pretty much the same, except we stayed home and i did nothing.

monday swings around and the full feeling of unemployment kicks in early in the morning. thought i had to be a bit productive, so i worked on that little program of mine and finished it. after that i spent most of the time playing games and helping make dinner, which was freaking amazing! i'm glad that wifey didn't bitch me out for being in the slump now that i got all the time that i craved and wanted for. she was quite understanding that this is how i am, so i just needed some time.

tuesday is when things got more interesting. it was a beautiful sunny day, one of the hottest days in the week, and roccio was prancing around restlessly wanting to go kai kai. so wifey and i walked roccio in the hot sunny day. we went to the lake nearby. there wasn't a lot of people there, but there was this one couple with their beagle dog named Molly, who howled each time a new dog entered the lake area; it was quite amusing and cute. it was such a beautiful day, wifey and i decided to come back to the lake for some swimming and sun tanning. the water was warm but still chilly for my taste, but wifey didn't mind and had a fun time swimming. we spent 2 hours at the lake and really had a good time. i guess that's when i got out of the slumpy feeling and realized that this is more of what i should be doing with my time, instead of staying home and feeling down.

there is so much life out there to live, and now i have to chance to do it. it was empowering, and i told myself - from today on, i'm going to be happy; i'm going to live my life the way i want to, the way it was intended to be.